Lost in Memories

Fly back to a time when life was so full, free, easy-going...
Think back to a time when the songs sung were made up of candy and silly verses...
Jump into the shoes of a child, playing was the only thing on her mind...
Matters of life and death made no sense to her...easily she brushed these aside.
Running and going nowhere, running just to run.
Never trying to get anywhere but home...right down the street.
The limits were set and they weren’t questioned, there was no reason for question...
Life was entertaining as it was.
Every day filled with hours of fun and friends.
The biggest dilemma facing the girl was having to go inside when the lights of the sun were turned off for the night.
Wanting that again, I am forced to return to the body and mind of a 15 year-old girl...
Knowing what tragedies face me and how vulnerable I really am...
Realizing that life is suffering and that independence and maturity takes work.
Finding out that all friendships won't mend as easily as they used to.
Crying fills each night, and a mask of joy covers my face during the day.
Writing brings me back...the world is nothing when I am able to make a life unlike my own...just by writing it on paper.
I can transform myself into a beautiful model and live a perfect existence... Until the book closes and I slam into the wall of my own life and hit the ground hard with no real escape.