We are 'Christians,' so we are murderers

We say we are "Christians." We say we're okay. We say we're going to heaven. All of this may be true, but sometimes we don't seem to realize the weight of those statements...We are are "Christians" because Jesus died for us, but not only did he die for us, he died BECAUSE of us. Every time we sin it's like killing Jesus all over again, it's us hammering the nails into his hands and feet. We torture Jesus with our lies and our deceit. We mock him when we don't trust him completely...We say "You can't do it, you aren't the Lord, you just don't understand" every time we deny his power and ability in ANY circumstance. Lots of times I find myself and others weighing sins saying, "Ok, yeah, we ALL sin, but come on, it's not like I killed a man...," but the truth of the matter is that I DID kill a man. I actually killed the man who saved my life. I am a murderer. Every time I commit just a "little" sin in the world's eyes I commit homicide. My sins and your sins are what caused our savior to lie in the ground for three days; They are what caused our Maker to suffer. Jesus didn't just die physically but he suffered emotionally as well...he took on all the weight of all of the pain we feel from any sin we commit...and that goes for every single person on earth. As much as our sins hurt us sometimes (some people it changes their entire lives and totally ruins them, and he took on EVERY SINGLE PERSON'S pain all at one time). We are brutal whenever we sin against him. It hits him deep down in his soul, every "little" sin we commit. Every time we turn from God his heart breaks.
As He took on the sins of the world, of me and you, "...Jesus cried out in a loud voice, 'Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani?' - which means 'My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?'" (Mark 15:34) He felt complete abandonment from God, his father, because God could not even so much as look at Jesus with all of the sin. It was too much for God to handle. He could not stand to even look at sin, but that is why Jesus had to come in order for us to have a way to heaven and to our Lord. Jesus bridged the gap and now God can look at us and see only perfection, no sin stains us...we come clean before him, washed white as snow, Jesus has redeemed us of all of our sins, no matter how "big" or "small" we seem to think those sins are...
"Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus" -Romans 8:1